(Photos from I Won’t Give Up - Jason Mraz)

I wished.

He was that guy. He was my first crush in highschool. I was head over heels for him that time. I did not know what is in him that makes me feel butterflies in my stomach and melt when he stares at me. Then I wished, if God would give him to me, I will be giving all my love. After more or less than 2 years, I think, God did give him to me. I could not ask for more.

Then, I wish.

I wish I could say this. I wish I could do this. I wish I could make things right. I wish I won’t give up on us. I wish.

We got so messed up. Right from the start, we had problems and felt like there were no solutions but almost 3 years had passed and we still have ‘us’. We have our differences and issues that made our relationship complicated. This time, we decided to call it quits. Lesson learned: love is not enough to make a relationship work. Now, I think I am starting to feel indifferent towards him. Happily ever after, GONE.

Finally, I will wish.

We need to get back our feet on the ground. We need to find our old selves when we do not have anything between us yet. We need to love ourselves this time because we forgot to leave something for ourselves because we were madly in love. I will wish we could start on Stage One. I do not know how much time we need. How many days, weeks, months or even years. I do not know. Life is becoming unpredictable. We really got a lot to learn.

I will wish you could find someone better than me, who will not disappoint you, who will not ignore all the things you do, and who will not do the same mistakes I did. I will wish she will love you as much as I did, she will always make you proud, she will always appreciate the things you do for her, and most of all, she will never be like me. I will wish you could find your better half. I will.

But if the fortune teller is right, love would lead us back.

Even Aphrodite would find a way. Even our God, would. Because He knows we are worth it.

Always,

Arianne